I want 'HIM"

HIM the dream guy that always wanted. Who is him?

All this time I've been in a relationship and get hurt in the end

It always wasn't something that I want in the relationship.

I want someone who will always be there for me.. especially through the hard time.

It's OK to be miles away.. but don't make me feel like I'm just your option..

I want HIM that will never say that he is board talking to me.. Listen to the things that I wanna share..never make me feel that I'm just being needed when he is just bored..

HIM that will never make me feel unwanted.. Treat me special even when with his friends.. love me the way I am.. call me beautiful even when I'm not.. never let me down.. those little things which means a lot to a girl...

Don't ever make a girl wait for your call... but If she calls you first, it means that she really miss you.. but if you reluctant in answering the call... you just don't know how much you hurt her feelings... if your busy just tell her you are but never sound uninterested to her saying..

If you play hard to get the girl... then Play hard to keep the girl.. you just never realize what you have till you lose it..

P/s: can't sleep and feeling down when making these..

Oli Oliday !!

Akhirnya tamat sudah tahun pertama menuntut di UiTM sebagai pelajar undang-udang :)

Buat rakan-rakan saya yang sanggup bersama mengharungi pahit dan manis sepanjang perkenalan kita, terima kasih korang.. hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa saya sangat sayangkan korang :)

(with my classmates)

Mulai harini tanggal 7/7/2012 saya akan bercuti panjang wee...

Sweet Moment

Music memang boleh buat orang rasa happy kan.

Lagi-lagi bile time tengah sakit bile dengar orang maenkan lagu untuk kite mesti rasa terharu sangat kan. Last night I had a high fever again..

haih demam x kebah2 sebabkn urat badan x betul lagi..

end up I couldn't sleep at all..

I thought lepas call my doraemon boleh la tidur..

pergh still the same...

Then not long after that doraemon start sending me whatsapp calling him..

he try to cheer me up with some songs with his friend's guitar..

that is one of the sweetest thing you ever done to me..

lagi-lagi when you start singing 'caramel' song

one thing about him.. die x romantic tapi certain time die akan jadi lelaki yang sangat sweet.

I love you syg :)

even though x ley tidur juga lepas tu but I'm feeling really happy

at least ilang skit rasa sakit tu..

p/s: you make me feel soo lucky dear :)

My first Sem Story

It's been ages I had forgotten to update my blog and what make it worst I forgot my password..
end up I had to create a new password..
now still in semester break and its coming to an end
just wanna tell you that I really miss my classmate class I
even though we are actually not that close to another but let me say to you
they are such a good classmate
class I you guys are the best




All I know I have a great class rep ans assistant class rep.. Enda and Hafez :)
well done my dear friends..


Study in degree really seems to be a lot of different compare to when I was in foundation
all I know the pressure is higher and need to study harder than before..
well who says Law is easy?..
Ergh.. try to memorize more than 100 cases and Facts before you could say the word easy.
I struggle myself a lot for this first sem,.
however my result are not as good as my hard work..
but its ok.. maybe there is something wrong with the way I do it..
I got to fix that.. :)
I fail to get DL for the first sem..
its ok.. still there 5 semester to go..
*go fara you can do it


There are so many memories I had when I'm in first sem..
The fun part was that sometimes I, eyka, azmie, syad, cyrill, hanis, and yad will went cycling together around UiTM..
It was fun :)
and I really miss it..

Below this are my 'geng berbasikal' wearing blue is cyrill..green is yad.
me in purple.. white shirt is nabilah.. syad in black.. azmie in orange.. eyka wearing the red hairband and hanis wearing black shirt :)
miss having fun with you guys
hope we can have more activities for next sem..

my dear classmate I really wish that I could stay for the next semester with you all
but if we can decide a new class for next sem I had to choose the best class for me
I mean the class with have a better time table..
but you guys will always be in my heart

The Story

Lately I've been addicted to this song.. just wanna share it with you guys :)

The story I'm about to tell you shows that

Love is unpredictable
One moment you have it
But then you lose it all again
This woman fell in love in early years
With a man who spoke directly to her soul
She was slowly taken by the aura that he had...


Couldn't tell him how she felt
It was too late for her to realise

His heart was never open
While hers will always be
She keeps it all to herself secretly
Though her heart will keep on beating
He will never ever see
How this story could turn out to be

She was always there when he was happy
Always there when he was sad
Whatever whenever for him
She always took her time
With every touch it felt like he came closer
But really what went on was something else
It was all in her head
Cos she wanted it so bad

Couldn't tell him how she felt
It was too late for her to realise
To realise

His heart was never open
But hers will always be
She keeps it all to herself secretly

Though her heart will keep on beating
He will never ever see
How this story could turn out to be

The sun goes up, the moon comes down
Week by week keep passing by
She tries not to think about him
Always when the rain falls down
She thinks about a different time
How she's missing not to hold him
And have him by her side

His heart was never open...

His heart was never open
But hers will always be
She keeps it all to herself secretly

Though her heart will keep on beating
He will never ever see
How this story could turn out to be

Pocket Doraemon Full of Love

from facebook.. ke skype...ke twitter...n finally shah alam

Love him Love him love love him ngee~

A risky relationship.. never thought that I could need him this much

two dimples side by side double the cuteness

he is just so amazing

the apple of my eye

;)

New LIfe

new life new path

Part 1 Life..

AWESOME

TIRING

EXCITEMENT

CURIOSITY

well.. lamanya x update blog..

ahaha bila start sambung blaja ni jadi macam x sempat je nak update.

class tuk part 1 ni best la gak.. kwn2 semua AWESOME..so far so good..

Time table x de la pack sgt.. but pelik kenapalah lately cepat betul penat..

tidur pun paling lewat kul 12 lebiy...

But yang paling tak suka >> Kesatria

aduih nak kena kawad n berdiri tengah panas di padang kawad...

ok sejujurnya saya mmg x aktif and paling bncikan kawad..

ye ngaku yang saya ni puteri lilin..

hahaha rupa buruk camne pun time kawad jadi x kisah da.. yang penting cepat la abis waktu

haha

TIRING sgt2... balik je dari Kesat malam tu x sampai lagi kul 9 da tidur...

mmg malam khamis tu x ley wat pape la..

( MONDAY!) ^^

Haih now bile nanti dah graduate akan dapat sekali sijil tuk Kemahiran Insaniah (KI)

nak x nak kenalah aktif lam persatuan atau menyertai apa-apa aktiviti yang

dianjukan oleh fakulti/club..

Farah just aktif under club Student Community Law Club (SCLC)

EXCITEMENT is just the word to interpret the feeling by joining this club..

now I'm involving myself dengan menjadi community member tuk Obesity Awareness Campaign yang akan datang..

fara just jadi Timbalan bendahari je.. :)

hopefully I will learn something valuable in involving myself with this campaign.

Face the fact yang degree is much much much much more harder than foundation

huhu

bile masuk degree ni semua yang dah belajar waktu time foundation rasa macam nothing

sebab now we'll be learning it to the depth of the law itself..

but its ok.. I'm having fun with law.. except sejujurnya

I had problem with this one killer subject "MALAYSIAN LEGAL SYSTEM"

urgh it suppose to be easy but kenapa macam susah sgt tuk fara adapt ngan subject ni

adakah kerana mindset ni dah x betul da..

=_=!

hopefully I won't fail in this subject..

p/s: a good start for part 1..

Si Doraemon..

Doraemon

chumel sgt..

die bulat

dia ska mkn..

suara die pun chumel..

ahaks

yg special ttg doraemon:

bile die senyum akn nmpk dimples die..awww geram gile..ahaha

bile kita busan n sunyi je die slalu ada

die pandai wat kite ketawa

die slalu wat kita rasa rindu je at die.. haih

slalu dengar rungutan kita..

kita bebel panjang2 pun die still nak dengar.. haha

die pandai bagi nasihat.. ska dgr nasihat die.. ^^

tapi aritu da rs malu gile ngan die.. huhu

kadang segan pun ada sebab die tau rahsia besar sy.. OMG malu yer..

ntahla maybe kita dah suka sgt kwn ngan doraemon ni

harap dapat kawan ngan doraemon sampai bile-bile

I mean forever and always..

Love BIte?? o.O!!

DR. kata fara ade love bite at lidah..

I was like..

"WHAT THE HECK!"

haha...

semalam petang fara gi what check up at klinik jap

sebab fara sedar demam fara macam masih x reda and terkejut bile lihat at cermin

yang lidah fara ada tanda bulat kecil rupa macam bekam darah but x tau la apa

nk kata tergigit lidah bila lak fara gigit takkan x sedar langsung..

nak kata tergigit time tidur, pagi bgn dari tidur je x de pun..

lidah just mcm kebas skit je but lidah nmpk mcm berdarah but x mengalir pape pun.

huhu

tu yang lepas anta adik ke class gi klinik jap

trpaksa la gi sorang2.. sp je la nak temankn :(

sampai je at klinik ngok org tunggu giliran

'MAK AIH RAMAINYA!'

haih tu yang smpai tunggu berejam..

sblm smpai giliran fara

tak sangka jumpe kwn lama fara

temankn gf die gi klinik...aww sweet

mcm sy ni... hampeh x de sp nk teman.. ahaha x pe2 independent skit :P

*ckp menyedapkn hati.. ahaha

-kalau dr secomel ni cepatlah fara sembuh ahaks-

bile jumpe dr tu je..soklan n ayat pertama yang keluar dr mulut die

'You got a love bite on your tongue.. who bites your tongue?'

I was like..

"WHAT!"

soklan yg memalukan betul..

hampeh dr kata lidah tu kesan gigitan

tapi.... bile lak fara gigit lidah fara sendiri...dr x nk caye.. huh

malas nk argue..

end up dr tu cite kn pengalaman die membuat postmortem 19 years ago in the year of 1992

sbb die kata kes fara mengingatkn die pada mangsa rape 19years ago..

the victim bites the rapers tongue smpai ilang separuh lidah die

errr ngeri lak bile igt blk..

but napa la fara ketawa je spjg dr tu bercerita.. ahaha

dr tu siap lukiskn lidah org tu yg tinggal separuh lagi..

haha siap de keratan akhbar lg dr tu tunjukkn..

end up perjumpaan yg sepatutnya singkat je menjadi setengh jam..

ahaha

now just ngah sapu ubat je la at lidah.. eee sgt tidak menyelesakan..

sp je la yang gigit lidah fara nih.. huhu

skang ni lidah da ilang la skit bekas bekam tu.. de skit2 je lagi..

p/s: aih bila la demam fara nak baik ni.. x larat la camni da la nk masuk kolej.. haih cubaan2

Slamat Hari RAya!! :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA !

yeah family fara mmg every year akn de portrait raya..

and for the year of 2011 inilah portrait raya family fara :)

nak sibuk-sibuk cite at korang ttg raya fara taun ni

hihi

the first day of Eid fara smbut raya di Banting, belah mama.

the best part raya di belah mama sbb rapat ngan cousin belah mama.

so bersama-sama la kami family duk bertandang ke rumah saudara mara.

memang meriah la kalau bergerak raya bersama-sama dengan mereka..

herm bile raya je mesti korang akn slalu fikirkn duit raya an..

senang cite fara nak wat hypothesis

"Semakin dewasa kita semakin kurangla duit raya"

haha... de yg stuju ade yang x...

raya kedua baru balik perak..

belah ayah alhamdulilah atuk n opah still pjg umur lagi..

:)

but sayangnya saudara belah ayah mmg fara x rapat la..

maybe sbb jrg jumpe jadi perasaan segan tu kuat sgt..

just harap dorang x terasa la ngan fara kalau x bertegur sgt..

fuh.. kenapalah fara nampak tembam lam pic ni.. bulat benar..

o.O!!

huhu x tau la nak citekan apa lagi.. ahaks

tu je la kot..

raya 2011 best celebrate ngan family..

full stop

p/s: Selamat Hari raya dan maaf zahir batin ye kawan-kawan :)

UPdate.. upDATE... UPDATE!!..

update...sal pe yek...

ahaks lama x update blog ni.. n now x tau lak nak update tentang pe.

ok start dengan sebab yang membuatkan fara lama x update blog...

1. sibuk dengan kerja.

2. kerja rumah yang perlu dibereskan makin banyak.

3. life lately macam busan jek

4. macam x de pe nak dikongsikan dengan korang.

5. tak nak la syok sendiri update bende bkn2.. ahaha

6. ilham2... x muncul2... nak smbung story pun cam x de..

7. online pun makin jarang.. ni lagi la nak menaip at blog..huhu

8. nak mengarut pun kene ada modal gak an..

9. nak citekan ttg pe yang berlaku setiap hari mmg tak la an..

10. hihi privasi...

ok now start part yang mengarut2.. ^^

Hari ni last day keje menjadi serorang guru.. The best part gaji pun masyuk arini.. ngee

ok duit gaji kn simpan untuk keperluan waktu sambung beajar nanti.

mana tak nya fara mana apply ptptn huhu..

parents x bagi apply, kata mereka:

"mama ngan ayah x mau anak mama berhutang. Kesian at kau nanti kene bayar truk lepas graduate"

waaa... I love them soo much!..

but skang ni memang da berazam la akan blajar bersungguh-sungguh n tak mahu menyusahkan dorang lagi nanti in the future.

now fara just apply jpa ye scholar je.. herm tu pun ngok la nanti rezeki macam mn.. dapat ke tak huhu..

Pic yang at bawah ni adalah pic2 anak2 saya yg berada di darjah 4.

chumel-chumel and bermacam2 kerenah dan telatah.. kadang tu tak tau nk control mcm mana..

bila marah tak makan saman la plak dorang ..huhu but bile igt blk rasa nak ketawa pun ada.'

yang class laen tu tak berkesempatan lak nak rakam saat2 bersama.

haha.. jangan ditanyakan kenapa dorang wat gaya camtu.. huhu.. mereka ni la yg plg active lam class... yg yellow colour Isyraf n biru kecik tu syafiq.. yg colour putih aniq..

nakal tapi chumel2.. ^^ will b missing them

yg kelabu tu Irfan.. antara student lelaki class year 4 yg agak pendiam.. baik bdknya..

these are the girls.. cantik2 bdknya.. dulu nah gak ngajar dorang wktu standard 3..

dr dpn.. Izz lyn, lyssa and kaira..

ok syafiq ni mmg nakal.. x padan dengan badannya yg kecik.. perangai cam gengster kdg tu.. balik2 asyik story sal bola je bdk ni.. XD but x pe nakal2 camne pun he still just a kid. nasib la muka tu chumel..

Kaira n lyssa.. my fav student.. :) love them soo much

herm sayang betul nak tinggalkn dorang.. just akan sentiasa doakan bdk2 ni agar berjaya kelak..

akan rindukan keletah dorang yg mencuit hati..

(seronok ye dorang bile kata nk amik pic ni)

........................................

dapat baby baru!!!

ngeh2..

hari rabu yang lepas dapat surprise dr ayah.

Ayah blk je dari mana nth tibe2 suruh amikkn brg die lam kete.. n ngok2 rupanya de hadiah lappy tuk fara lam kete.. ^^ excited betul bile dpt tu,..

ayah sibuk tanya kalau nak lappy nak colour pe..

I mintak yg colour purple kalau de but dah pesan at die yang kalau nak beli tu tunggu along da masuk part 3 la kalau ye pun.. sbb mn x ye.. lappy at umah da byk sgt ley je pinjam mama ye or ayah ye je kalau nak bwk gi kolej...n lappy sy tu tau la da ampir nk nazak da,.. but still ley pakai..

Sony VAIO C series

tak tau lak de byk lagi pilihan colour yg cantik2..

x pe la.. smart gak colour elegant purple ni.. kdg nmpk cam purple kdg nmpk cam itam..

ahaha.. pape pun syukur sgt atas hadiah dr ayah ni.. :)

sayang Encik Ismail Osman sgt2..

herm lagi pe ye nak dikongsikan.. herm..herm...

tu je la kot.. ahaks

bulan ramadhan nak dekat berakhir dah... sedih lak tinggalkan ramadhan..

:( masih banyak lagi amalan yang belum cukup..

haih.. semoga ini bukanlah ramadhanku yang terakhir.

Boleh ke BERUBAH??

Always hoping that someone we do care to change his or her bad attitude..

kita slalu mengharapkan orang lain berubah but kenapa kita sendiri yang x nak berubah?

really?

humans don't??

itu adalah statement yang tidak patut diterima...

why??

cubalah ingat, Umar bin Khattab sebelum menjadi sahabat Nabi yang mulia, beliau pernah jahiliyyah, pernah khilaf.

Tapi kemudian dia insaf dan jujur pada dirinya sendiri dan orang lain.

even Allah s.w.t sentiasa membuka pintu taubatnya pada hamba-hambanya yang pernah berpaling daripadanya..

then why berpegang pada statement or kata-kata yang manusia xkan pernah berubah,.

Kata-kata itu hanya digunakan untuk menyakinkan kita bahawa kita sebenarnya tidak akn pernah berubah.. salahlah kita jika mengandaikannya begitu.

Alhamdulilah sekarang telah tiba bulan Ramadhan, bulan yang penuh bermakna..

Malah telah didoakan oleh Jibril

"Celakalah orang yang melalui Ramadhan tatapi dosanya masih tidak diampuankan (yakni dia tidak juga berubah sebelum dan selepas Ramadhan)"

Rasullah lalu mengaminkannya.

Jadi bulan yang mulia ini andai sebelum ini kita x pernah cuba untuk berubah..

berubahlah..

bila lagi?

ajal dan maut semua ditangan Tuhan mungkin Ramadhan ini adalah Ramadhan terakhir yang akan kita lalui..

Oleh itu janganlah dilepaskan setiap nafas dan waktu yang telah dikurniakan oleh Allah s.w.t

untuk berubah menjadi lebih baik dari hari2 sebelum ini..

Belajarlah untuk memaafkan kesalahan orang lain terhadap kita..

mungkin dengan memaafkan dia akan mula berubah..

tapi andai dia masih tidak berubah

biarkan saja..

Jangan disimpan perasaan marah di hati, ikhlaskan saja..

Kepada Kawan-kawan semua SELAMAT BERPUASA dan SEMOGA BERJAYA dalam perjuangan kita melawan nafsu di bulan yang Mulia ini..

Lost the Love

She may be your heart but I'm your soul

She may be your princess but don't you know that I have been your queen for a long time

She may be your light.. I'm there in your every darkness

She may be your smile.. don't you remember that I'm the one who brings you laughter..

She'll cry for you..but I'll trade my life to save you..

She may be your every breath but I'll be your last breath..

She may stop you from leaving.. but if I was her I'll let you leave if that's for the best..

Just so you know you lost the love you had the most..

Need Me?

All I can ever say...

"If you need me I'll be there for you"

I'm sorry if I rarely reply your messages ..

I'm sorry if I'm not close to you like I once before..

I'm sorry for treating you cold..

the words of sorry will only be my last word

I admit that I had once close with many guys

I have many guy friends who had once becoming my best friend

Maybe I was too open minded that it is not wrong for a girl to be close to a boy..

~For me a friend will only be as a friend it will never be more than that~

Thinking back on what had happen to my life

I finally realize that I had to stop being close to any guy friends

the fact is that each of them will finally end up having some kind of weird feelings for me..

I'm tired of loosing any friends..

Starting now I will start to be more careful next time being close to people

for every guy..

if i rarely reply your message .. I'm sorry

but I'll reply it if it's for some important reasons..

find me for important things...

not for an empty talk..

I'm not that easy anymore you should know that..

p/s: My friends I love you all soo much always remember that you are all important to me.. :)

Balasan Derhaka

Selama ni kalau org kata jgn melawan kata cikgu nanti ilmu x berkat

jangan x percayakan tu..

even kutuk-kutuk belakang cikgu pun amat ditegah dalam Islam..

igtlah walau sehebat mana pun kita di dunia ini tanpa seorang guru ataupun pembimbing siapalah kita..

sepanjang menjadi seorang cikgu ni x sangka ade gak bdk2 seawal usia 12 taun yg sudah berani bersikap kurang sopan kepada cikgu..

bdknya sgt bijak and cekap membuat kerja cuma die mempunyai sikap yang amat tidak menyenangkan hati..

beberapa hari yang lepas bdk2 UpSr ni baru menduduki peperiksaan percubaan..

and yg plg unexpected die yg slame ni x nah x dpt semua A tibe2 kecundang lam subject penulisannya...

dan bile teringat blk td... rupanya2 I dah pernah terasa ngan die sewaktu class bm..

yeah I teach him Bm..

teringat blk waktu suruh bdk2 ni wat penulisan ucapan untuk hari guru...

and I remember he refused to do it..

time student laen sibuk siapkan essay masing2..

die lak ley duduk termenung and asyik tulis and padam je essay die..

mengatakan ssh sgt nak siapkan..

I pun peliklah napa bdk sebijak die x tau langsung nk wat..

herm bile class tamat rupanya2

die x ley wat sbb die x mempunyai langsung rasa nak menghargai seorang cikgu

and I still remember his words that

"Cikgu asal plak patut dihargai patutnya dimaki je!"

astagfirullah x sangka ayat tu kuar dr mulut bdk tu..

haih mungkin slame ni die bijak die fikir itu semua tanpa doa and berkat ilmu yg dia belajar slame ni dari seorg cikgu

and at that moment mmg I terasa and x tau nak kata apa lagi dah at bdk tu

soo I just pray that he'll change one day..

but bile ngok penulisan die yg x dpt 'A' agak terkejut gak sbb bdk yg truk dr die ley dptkn 'A' tuk penulisan...

mungkin waktu die wat I terasa ketika tu watkan ilmu yang die belajar tidak berkat...

haih

time tu wat I sedar yang sehebat mana pun kite jgn ego

hormatlah at cikgu kita..

kerana once die dah terasa ngan kata2 or perlakuan kita tiada berkat lam ilmu yang kita miliki..

FED Up

I thought you were my friend..

lately you change a lot..

I mean a LOT!!

you once there when I need ya

I can say anything when I'm with you

I can always be honest to myself when I was with you..

I really love when you treat me the same like you does to your friends

I miss that person that will always accept everything on what I say and how I treat him

but now every time when I'm with you I always need to becareful on what I might say

some times I'm not honest to myself and to you lately

and you make me feel tired entertain your ego

for a second you are nice to me..

and in a split of moment you'll blaming me on something which you don't have the rights to be blaming me on..

I HATE it!!

I'm sorry if you once thought I had accepted you in my life..

for what I had remember I only said that I'm giving you the chance to try

I never said that I'm gonna love you and accept you to be as more than a friend

but you keep blaming me for the misunderstand

for all this time I just kept quit cause I hate thinking that you'll be hurt

soo I let you blame me for everything..

This is what happen when your best friend once had feelings for you..

you should know me better..

you had known me for years now..

you should have know that its hard for me to love someone and letting him go and it might take years for me to recover..

give me space to breath..

I hate when things like feelings come into our topic..

I hate that!

harsh words really hurts..

and you keep using it against me when your mad..

then after awhile you'll come back being friends with me acting like things are ok..

it's not OK!

everyday it's getting tiring.. n I'm fed up with your ego!

I'm staying away from you cause I know we can't even be friends cause you'll keep blaming me

and you'll think I'm giving you hope..

I'm tired of it!

now I'll just keep silence from you starting from now..

I hate hurting you but you just keep on hurting me

what friends are for??

what is the meaning of friends to you??

maybe its my fault to be close to you..

I'm happy with my life now..

please don't interfere

it's ok if I'm lonely...

one thing please don't greet me and pretend that things are ok..

it's not ok..

p/s: there is no such thing as a best friend between a girl and a boy...

Syukur Alhamdulilah

BAND 4!!!

alhamdulilah syukur ke hadrat ilahi..

akhirnya diberikn peluang ke-2 untuk teruskn pengajian ke bidang perundangan di UITM

haih..

tak dpt digambarkn betapa gabra nya sblm ni nk check result camne..

huhu.. alhamdulilah berkat usaha dan doa2 drp mereka yg sentiasa mendoakn kejayaan sy

akhirnya berjaya gak pass MUET ni.. huhu

cukuplah ngn band 4 n pointer yg x seberapa tinggi 3.62 ni tuk smbung undang2..

yang paling gembira bila tau teman2 yang rapat sama2 dulu turut sama berjaya

syukur sgt2..

sekarang tinggal tunggu utk update result baru je..

insyAllah buat teman2 ku yg akan sambung menuntu ke bidang perundangan gak

"kita jumpa di sana, insyAllah"

:)

p/s: setiap kegagalan ada hikmah di sebaliknya.. insyAllah..